Lady GaGa – Poker Face (Piano Version)

I used to think Lady GaGa is just another singer trying a lousy shot at becoming something established. Until I watched this.

MAN. SHE’S GOOD!!

and she looks real funny on that video

ORD LOH!

Jen Wen and Samuel ORD this week.

2 months on, I will be next. CAN’T WAIT!

Verse

Went over to Peiwen’s blog and read this, a timely reminder.

“but when you ask, you must believe. you must not doubt…” James 1:6

Something which I haven’t been doing..

And Tabi’s positivity is rubbing off on me! =)

At least send me..

Today, it’s the last day of the ‘golden 15 days period’ wait for the letter of offer. As of now, my application is still “being processed”.

The period to accept the offer is until 1st June. And even if they send a letter of offer next week, I will only have 2 weeks to get anything done. So as you can tell, hopes are slim. And I know the tea session with the dean is next saturday, a tradition for those that are offered a place in the school.

I was just thinking to myself ‘AT LEAST SEND ME THE REJECTION LETTER NOW!’, it’s so difficult to be waiting for the result every single day.

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I got in contact with the people at the admissions. I was told that my application is still pending, and I will just have to wait till the end of this month to know the results. The guy added that I can accept other universities’ offers (what other offers?) while waiting for the results, it will not affect anything.

I wonder if that’s the clearest hint.

Guess it’s time to consider my options.

Exhausted and concerned

I’m feeling quite exhausted. I think even though I’m not getting very involved in camp anymore, just having to plan for maintenance work (like a regular’s job), I don’t really go down to do ground work anymore. It’s still very tiring.

And it doesn’t help that my parents are down with stomach flu. I think my dad had food poisoning and my mum just had diarrhea.

Getting quite tired now. =(

Education Prospects

It’s been a week or so after the interview. I’ve yet to get a confirmation from any of the local universities. Just one confirmation from Australia, I’ve been offered a place at University of Melbourne for Bachelor of Commerce (Accountancy), which I’ve been putting it on hold because of my sudden desire to remain grounded and stay here in Singapore.

I know at some point in my life, I will move overseas to do something that will require me to stay there for a year or more. It may be a work requirement or just a sabbatical year. But I know, for sure, if I go there now, I will not come back even after I finish my course of studies. I will probably stay there, wherever it may be, to attain a PR status before I return back to Singapore.

But I’m trying to be patient with all of these. Over the week, I’ve been glued to my computer hoping to get an answer from SMU, even though I know that the standard waiting time for a reply should be around 2 weeks, but I’m hoping for an exception. What I do get is, NTU asked me to send in my poly transcripts on-line and 2 emails from NUS School of BA explaining what their Accountancy course is about. But at such a late stage in the applications period, what I really want is a confirmation and that hasn’t come. Just imagine, every single day after coming back from work, the first thing I will do is to get on-line and look out for emails or log in to the portal to find out if I’m accepted to anywhere. I’ve begun to feel worn out doing that. Patience is what I’ve never learned after three years of trying, and it’s what I’m still trying to learn now.

It’s been a long 3 years burden, and no matter what the results of this final round may be, I will have to suck it up and go ahead with it. I just hope that disappointment or joy, it doesn’t cloud over God’s plans for me.

Burdened

I feel burdened by something but I can’t tell what it is.

I wonder…

Priscilla Ahn – Dream

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I’m supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I’m old and feeling grey. I don’t know what’s left to say about this life I’m willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there’s many tales I’ve lived to tell. I’m ready now, I’m ready now, I’m ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream

The interview

I’ve been talking about my experience like a grandfather tells stories to his grandchildren cept’ that my listeners are older than that (some older than me). I know, as Cheryl reminded me that, I haven’t gone for a lot of interviews and the previous was probably the interview at SMU but, of course, for another course; this interview will go down as the most memorable and most mind boggling.

(Oh, I just had to say this, I still watch Smallville and I still think Chloe is the best of all the characters. Maybe Allison Mack is just such a great actress.)

There were 3 others before me on that day, so it was interesting to be watching their expressions after they exit the room. I find it real funny how they were unable to remember that you have to press the button before you exit this section of the building even after watching a few others did it. So I made a little note to myself to remember to do that and not make me look stupid forcing the handle of the door.

Anyway, back to my interview. It was two professors to one interviewee, so that sounded all right. It was the questions this one professor asked that caught me off guard. In the online application, I remembered I had to put down what my religion is and well, ‘Christianity’ was what I chose. So just after the nice greetings and all, I wasn’t given a chance to warm up to them and this prof went down straight to this question which was ‘If you believe Christianity is true, will that make other religions not true?’. I mean the question would have been easy if we were talking about respecting other religions. He went on, ‘If I were to be worshipping the devil, would that make it bad?’

For a good 5-8 minutes we were on that topic. I don’t intend to publish my replies to the questions above, but just know I didn’t compromise on it.

We went on to topics that were more related to the course, topics relating to sexual behaviours in this society. But by then, I felt a little shaken and I’m not sure if what I said made sense to them.

At the end of the interview, the professor commented ‘Lijia, you have a very conservative thinking, let’s see how we can work on that when you come here.” I thought that was a bit playing with my mind. I didn’t react much to that comment because my bag strap was clamped down by the legs of the chair. So I got it out, smiled, shook their hands and walked out.

BUT, I remembered to press the button at the door to exit! HA!

Interview coming soon

Just so you people know, I have an interview at SMU, tomorrow morning, and by the time you are reading this, I would have been sleeping, up getting ready or even at the interview already. (which is 915am Singapore Time)

I have been preparing for it, and it’s more nerve wrecking than the previous time at infosys management because I do care about this course that I’m being interviewed for, Social Science.

And it has been nerve wrecking since 3 days ago when I know I’m going down for this interview. And believe me, I’ve asked for help from more people than I expected myself to and I hope this is it. more than enough.

I don’t feel prepared, but I’ve never felt prepared for anything. I hope to do well enough to impress.

The interview phase started at the beginning of this month, and to drag till so long and reached me, only now, could only mean trouble.

Pray for me, on the interview if you are reading this before 915am
Pray for me, on the results of the interview if you are reading this after 915am

Thanks!