Gathering

I’m very excited about the gathering on Saturday. It’s not the usual close group that comes but diversified people from different groups of our batch are coming together, hopefully, next time, we can make it even bigger than this, that has always been a dream.

But I feel very uncertain about it. When I look at the guest list time and again, people who have confirm with me and people who said they will consider and people who said they will try their best, it really gives me this uncertain feeling. I mean really, I haven’t got a positive reaction from anyone, I felt that I’m the only one excited about it. And I know I have a target of 20 people, yet this target feels ambitious. But with all these uncertainty, I was so willing to spend so much money and effort on it, which I already have. Buffet catering, working with Jen Wen to get the place, disseminating contact persons.

I’m feeling tired but I really want to see these people, whom I’ve invited, come and that drives me on, in hope that I have a good turn out on that day. But the fear of being pang seh-ed just lingers.

But I will just give thanks for every person who comes.